I had the absolute time of my life last weekend. Nothing could've gone better (except it could've lasted forever). Last weekend I got to (re) meet my cousin and his wife, see my cousin I haven't seen in 7 years and meet his wife and 4 year old, see my fav cousins, and party like it was the end of the world! My (second) cousin, who I admit I am not close with nor do I know very well, got married on Saturday, which was, obviously, the weekend of the 4th of July. We (as in Matthew and I) went to my parents house on the 3rd after work to make a long weekend of it. On the Fourth we just hung out at home with my family and my neighbor and played yard games, shot some fireworks, had some beers, and grilled out. It was a lot of fun. On Friday Matt and I got up super early and left to spend the day at the Omaha Zoo. It was hot out, but I had a lot of fun. We spent about four hours there, and even though we didn't get to see EVERYTHING, we saw quite a bit. I was ready to be done walking after four hours. Not seeing everything this time gives us an excuse to go back someday!
Then it was back to Sioux City for the wedding weekend! The first person I saw (and got to witness me struggling with the luggage cart) was my cousin Boyd!!! The one I haven't seen since I was too young to even remember him! (I have pictures as evidence!) He gave me a great big hug and I went on my way with that stupid luggage cart. They all had to be at the rehearsal dinner so they met back up with us later that evening. I think they got back around 9 and we (well, most of us) were up until about 1:30 drinking and catching up on each other's lives! It was especially exciting to meet Boyd's wife and visit with her. Even though it was if we already knew each other (thanks, Facebook!)
Saturday was the wedding. It was a very beautiful wedding and Kayla looked gorgeous (as always). It was short and sweet too, which is always a bonus. The rest of the evening/night was spending drinking, taking a million pictures, dancing, and taking over the photo booth that Tyler and Kayla had at the wedding! I am definitely getting a photo booth at my wedding reception when I get married! We had more fun with that thing than anyone else there! The wedding dance went until 2 am, and of course we didn't stop there. We were up until almost 4 am BSing. It made for a long drive back on Sunday, but if I had the chance to do it all over again, I would! I found out that us Schaefer's have more in common that we probably would've imagined. It's re assuring to know some of those things! HA!
So...after that great weekend, the best I've had in a very long time, came a bad week. I had one of "those" weeks, the ones that come around this exact time every year, and also at some point in the middle of winter. It hasn't been a fun week. This is what it's been like and how I have been feeling..
Tired, all of the time, no matter how much I sleep. Wanting to sleep, all of the time, even if I'm not tired. Lonely even though I haven't bee alone but for an hour here or there. Sad, even though I can't figure out what there is to be sad about. Anxious, even though there is NOTHING to be anxious about. Depressed, about what?! Hopeless, hell I'm never HOPEFUL! Bored. Uninterested. Mad at the stupidest little things that nobody should ever get mad about. It has been TERRIBLE. Everyone in the world could ask me what's wrong and I will not have an answer for them. I'm in one of those funks that I can't get out of. I know that (hopefully tomorrow) I will wake up and life will be back to normal and it'll be like this past week never even happened. These "downers" seem to last about a week. Sometimes a little less, but not usually any longer. I don't like it. I hate it. I can't explain it and nobody can understand it. I get small bursts of energy that last about an hour and then I'm done. Matthew has offered several options for things to do and I just say no. Why?! They're things I normally like to do!! It's frustrating not only for me, but for anyone that has to deal with me, or anyone that goes through this themselves.
Anyways, I feel like maybe I might be on the ups. I hope I wake up tomorrow and life is back to normal and I can carry on with my normal routine. Feeling like this takes a lot of energy out of me. Energy I don't have to begin with. I might go completely in sane if this goes on any longer.
That's all for now, here's hoping!
