Boring.

I'm not real sure what my deal is lately, or why I'm in this "funk", but I have a good idea of what may be causing it. Every year for the past...oh 3 or 4 years some big change has happened in my life. Some of those being good changes, and some of those being things I had to work through. This is about the time of year that all of those big things have happened. This year, nothing is new or exciting in my life. Everything is just the same ol, same ol. I'm sitting alone, again, thinking about all of the great things I would like to do but can't afford, thinking of all the friends that live far away that I wish I could visit but again, can't afford, wishing I was closer to my family in times like this so I wouldn't have to feel so bad about my life.

Three years ago I graduated from college. This was a huge step in my life. Something not many people thought I could do. It was a huge transition for me going from being in school full time and working some part time jobs here and there to having a full time internship to having my first "big girl" job.

 Two years ago I went through a terrible break up, flew to the east coast to visit a friend without telling anywhere where I was at (to this day not many people other than the one I was with, and Matthew know that I was there...sshh!) and I also met Matthew two years ago around this time. All of that happened within about 4-6 weeks of each other. Talk about ups and downs!

Last year I got a new job. A job I had been looking for since I graduated three years ago. Some (that listen to me complain) would probably not think I like my job. But I really do...it's what I went to school to do, it's what I have a passion for. It makes me feel good at the end of the day. That is, on days I don't want to pull my hair out and scream at the top of my lungs because I'm stressed out =) Either way, I can't believe that at the end of the month I will have been there for a year already. Time just goes too fast.

So here I am now waiting for something big to come along and happen in my life. I have no high hopes of anything, in fact my hopes are about as non-existent as they come anymore. This probably wouldn't bother me so much if new and great things weren't happening to everyone around me.

I don't know that I'm expecting anything to happen, but it would probably help liven my life up a bit. Anyways, that's my vent about how boring my life is./end rant.